In my last post about artcritique a stranger said I’m NOT an Artist I talked about how to deal with inappropriate critisism. Today I want to talk about:
How to deal with internal, inappropriate critisism
What’s that? Basically this is the thing where you beat yourself up and tell yourself you are crap, all you do is sh** and you will never do anything worthwhile in your entire life.
Here is what happened:
As you know I use Instagram a lot and I post (@claudi_pinkie) every Artwork I make there even before it is in my shop. I post twice a day and sometimes I have good post on which many people react, comment and like and sometimes I have posts where only some people react. That’s totally ok. I don’t expect anything else. It’s the same with followers, you gain some, you lose some.
But suddenly this happened:
I posted a detailpic of a mini-artwork and started losing followers. They literally ran away. I thought to myself “well they don’t like this one. That’s ok. They are going to like the next one.” But it didn’t stop. It went on for two days and I was unable to stop losing followers.
say hello to nagging worries, insecurity and anxiety
I am immune to some level of critisism, but that triggered my inner critic. I started to question me and my art again. I thought this guy, who said my work isn’t art was right and everybody seems to agree to that. I was thrown back to the point where I started this blog a year ago- insecure, anxious and fearful.
But what did I learn in the last year?
Be scared and do it anyway
I took a short break and then I started making art again. At first I thought I won’t be able to make something good, when my inner critic is in such a bad mood…but then something clicked. I enjoyed the process. I loved the colours and I did five paintings in one session. I really love painting!
And I also love this mini-artwork which caused this situation. Maybe it is not my best piece, but this little abstract tree was one of the first pieces I did, after I decided to go all in and just make art. This little piece stands for a whole new life.
losing followers ≠bad art
when you lose followers it simply means that someone is not interested in the things you post, but that does not mean it is crap. You just lose people, who weren’t a good match in the first place. You should also consider, that it is not the number but the quality of followers. You don’t need thousands of people see your stuff. As an Artist you just need a handful of people who truly appreciate your work.
Did you experience something similar? I would love to hear your story! I’d also love to see your art on Instagram! Please leave a comment!